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Life is so ridiculous sometimes.
I always date shitty boys
I dont have high expectations
I just ask that you act like you care
and to call when you say your going to.
I could I didnt talk to you all day
just as long as I get to hear your voice before I go to sleep.
well better news, I think?
me and pat are together again
I dont know for how long or why ,but we are.
I'm happy when I'm with him [so unbelievably happy]
but to be honesti dont know how i feel about him sometimes. I love him
but I'm not "in" love with him[ but i want to be]
he doesnt know what he wants and it scares me
so I'm not letting myself like him as much as I know I want to.
He's such a sweetheart, but he doesnt know how to show he cares.
he doesnt know how to be a "good" boyfriend.
and I've givin it my all. and treated him like god.
and actaully showed him that I care, but i dont think he sees that
and i havent really gotten anything in return.
i dont want a boy to buy me things or take me to fancy places
just make me laugh and love me , thats all I want.
I dont want to be your #1 priority but I also dont want to be the last.
I dont want to be treated like shit,I dont deserve it at all.
I dont know if he knows it kills me inside to know that he doesnt care
he says he does , but we all know pat doesnt care about anyone but himself.
and thats all that will matter to him.
He's so involved in his life , that I dont think I'm meant to be a part of it.
cause if i was he would actaully try to make me a part of it.
but I dont mind, i enjoy the phones calls from him even if they are like 5 seconds long.
at least i know he thought about calling me
but most of the time i have to tell him to call me
which i shouldnt have to . he should want to call.
so im not going to ask him to anymore.
if he wants to talk to me he can, but im not gonna put effort into this if he isnt.
I love the boy to death , i just dont know about him sometimes.
well yesturday was our 2 month anni. so lets see how long we last this time.
p.s I'm getting two new piercings today at 4:30 soo fucking excited
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[18 Feb 2006|01:32pm] |
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so I take back everything I said about the girl in my last entry.I adore her.
but ha, funny news,The boy that I like oh so much dumped me yesturday,well attempted to. But we sorta worked things out and we are good now. and I hope it stays that way.
I have an amazing best friend , she bought me candy for valentines day!
ummI really wanna change my hair color.well I wanna bleach it more. ohh doing it tonight soo excited!
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[04 Feb 2006|09:19am] |
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So theres this boy. And I like him so fucking much. I seriously thought that after dating Kenny ( our relationship was over a year) I would never love someone again. But theres just something about this boy that makes EVERY second with him amazing. and because its so amazing, I'm so afriad its not going to last and I'm gonna end up heart broken. He has way to many girls as friends and yeah he's in a band I knwo so he's going to have girls hit on him and all that shit. and he says he wont leave me and that I'm the most beautiful girls he's ever met. well yeah someday he will meet one who is GORGEOUS. and POOF ,I'm gone. maybe I shouldnt think about the worst , maybe I should just enjoy the present and not worry about what he does when hes not with me, which is like 6 days out of 7. I know it will be hard but I guess its the best if I want this relationship to last, I dont even have a back up boy thats how like devoted I am to him , I ALWAYS had a back up boy just incase the worst would happen. ahh I love him I really do and its hurts like hell cause I dont know if he loves me the same way. He was so mad at me last night. I felt like the worst person ever. and guess what it was over, yeah so dumbass girl. ugh idk , I dont mind her its just I feel so threatened by her. that it makes me want to hate her. and well she's his ex and supposedly they are best friends( ha) he says that about all his ex's at one point. and well I used ot be friends with her while they were dating but now not so much,I dont talk to her much. I dont talk to her at all. ugh it bothers me soo much that he was talking about me to her! wtf.
idk theres just so much shit going on in my life right now its ridiculous. my mom took her x-bf back and he was fucking living off us for 3 years, shes SO FUCKING RETARDED. shes never really done anythign good for me since I turned 16, I've had to fend for myself .I have to buy myself everything. I have to take care of myself, I have get myself to work somehow. how come no one ever gives a shit about me. at one point they do but then they stop.My dad doesnt give a shit about me, hes to involoved with his life ot care, my mom doesnt give a shit about me , shes to involved with he shitty boyfriend to care about me or my sister, WTF is wrong with people!!!!!! I DONT WANT TO FUCKING LIVE HERE ANYMORE. I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT.
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| SURVEY |
[26 Jan 2006|10:55am] |
Time started:
10:48
First Name:
Katelyn
Single or Taken:
Taken
Sex:yes ,please....FEMALE
Birthday:
December 3rd 1988
Eye color:
brown
height:
5'4"
What are you wearing right now:
jeans,socks,underwear,bra,yellow tank top,hoodie and winter coat.
Righty or lefty:
righty.
Can you make a dollar in change right now:
yeah like 10 dollars
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Relationships
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Do you have a BF or Gf?
yesm
Do you like someone?
yesm
Best place to go for a date?
my bed?
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Favorites...
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Favorite place to shop:
ummmmm online.
Favorite kind of pants:
jeans.
Color(s):
TEAL
Number(s):
3,7,9
Animal:
hippo
Drink:
mountain dew
Sport(s):
ummm crocket
Fast-Food Place:
burger king!
Month:
June
Movie(s):
ALOT
Juice:
apple
Breakfast:
toast.
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Have you ever
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Smoked Pot:
yeah.
Bungee jumped:
HELL NO
Made yourself throw-up:
yea, when i drink to much and dont feel good , i do
Eaten a hot dog:
esm , i love hot dogs
stuck your tongue on a cold pole:
no just ice
Broken a bone:
nope.
Been in a police car:
haha yeah
Been in a sauna:
yes.
been in a hot tub:
yes.
Swam in the ocean:
yes.
Fallen asleep in school:
yes.
Ran away?:
tried to.
Broken someone's heart:
yeah:( OH WELL
Cried when someone died:
yes.who wouldnt
Cried in school:
yes.
Fallen off your chair:
hahaah many times.
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call?:
yea.
saved emails?
yes.
Been cheated on?:
yes.
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What is...
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Your good luck charm:
i dont have one
what does ur room look like?
looks like strawberry shortcake threw up in it
Last thing you said:
bye,have a good day
What is beside you:
a garbage can
What kind of shampoo do you use?:
strawberry kind
Best thing that has happened to you this year:
pat<3
Worst thing that has happened to you this year?
Josh.
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Have you had..
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Chicken pox:
yes
sore throat?
who hasnt?
stiches?
no.
Broken nose:
no.
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Do You
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Believe in love at first sight:
depends.
Like school:
no.
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Would you/what is
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Eat a live hamster for $1,000,000. dollars?
fuck no
Who was the last person that called you:
hmmm..christine
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Do you/Are You:
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Do you like filling these out:
yesm
Do you like yourself:
most of the time
Do you get along with your family:
yeah
Stolen anything over 50$:
nope.
Obsessive:
nope.
Anorexic?:
no
Suicidal?:
no.
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This or That?
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Skiing or Boarding:
neither, i dont like snow
fall or winter:
fall.
Silver or Gold:
silver.HATE gold
Diamonds or pearls:
diamonds.
Sunset or Sunrise:
sunset.
Orange juice or apple juice:
apple bitches
Cats or dogs:
dogs
Phone or in person:
in person.
Indoor or outdoor:
indoor.
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Final questions
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What are you listening to right now:
the computer making noises
What did you do yesterday:
took a midterm
Are you a good driver?
YES!
Are you a good Singer:
haha no
What do you dream about?
really retareded things.
but if you really wanna know ive got lots of stories!
End Time:
11:07
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| ohhh snap |
[24 Jan 2006|11:57am] |
so ,I decided that my old LJ was gay cause all I ever talked about was my ex(bf at the time) and then I just stopped writting in it.
so now heres a new start!!!!
I dont have to go to school today or tomorrow SWEEET.
so I was thinking,I dont like when boys say the SAME thing to every girl they dates.but oh well ..lol
I'm going to go be a lazy bum now cause I have nothing to talk about.
<3pmw
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